Self destruct.

Sleep seems to be far flung, and short lasting when it happens lately. I can take a hour long cat nap every 19 hours or so. When I am so lucky, I dream of serial killers, having to watch a young girl get killed, running around in pitch dark while it's wet outside feeling my way around to run away from whatever. Then waking up (while I'm still dreaming) and walking halfway down my stairs to see Rob sitting there wearing his scarf and hat, bundled for the cold. I ask him "Baby, do you want to come in here with me?" because the first part of my dream was what appeared to be a very real movie and I am scared. "Of course baby", he replies in my dream.

Then I wake up, horrified, sad and in tears.

I am by myself now. And I need to realize that I have to go at this alone, and that it's the best way, as much as I hate it.

And I hate it more than I've ever hated anything, ever.

Yes! I have 3 new songs up, one of which you know Tinsel. I remastered it and it sounds fantastic! Another is brand new, and the other is a song that the lovely Ika. He also has 2 new songs up and they rock!

http://www.myspace.com/thethingwiththestuff
http://www.myspace.com/ikaland

Check out this video I made for the awesome Vengeful Stalactite


And this one for my band The Terribles!


Your feedback is always appreciated and I want it! =)

haha.

Lookin' good America.

Lookin' good..

I want to remember this day, October 26 2008. As much as I am thrilled that it is almost over, I feel it's necessary to document the occasion to myself. My days of stressful anticipation leading to today have been unbearable. With events such as death in my close family and best friends family, uncertainty of what is present, questioning ones self worth and being and feeling completely alienated from my "born" family and the family I have hoped to have made for myself, I cant help but sit here and wonder "why?". Why indeed am I letting everything pass me by, worrying about what someone may or may not be thinking. Worrying about employment, money, relationships, creativity and family are valid. I just need to live and it's disappointing to say that I have not been. The days of sitting, waiting and worrying are over. I feel rejuvenated and motivated thanks to getting myself out of my own head. I just really owe it to myself to stay on this track and keep my mind focused and healthy.

Shit.

You know how much I love Glenn DANZIG





Love a Rob Day!
Rashad, you're pretty supreme as well!

Halloween Party was fantastic!

Check me out and some of the other fantastic talent of the Sociopath community! Click here to download!

And don't you forget about...

Nice to meet you, I'm:
Lauren


Okay,​ who was the last perso​n who held your hand?​:​
Rob


Who is the fourt​h recei​ved call on your call log?
Maux




If you could​ chang​e your eye color​ what would​ it be?:
Purple




How many pillo​ws are on your bed?​:​
5




Is there​ someo​ne you can'​t stop think​ing about?
Rob



Have you ever had a surpr​ise birth​day party​?​
No



Who/​what is the fourt​h perso​n on your conta​ct list?​:​
BG&E




When'​s the last time you cried​?​
Thursday





Who was the last perso​n that made you laugh​?​:​
Maux





Whats​ the longe​st you'​ve been on the phone​?​:​
8 hours I'm guessing




How many 20 dolla​r bills​ do you have on you right​ now?​:​
haha that's cute. None silly!




Have you ever seen your best frien​d cry?​:​
Yup




Do you dance​ in the car?​:​
Everyday




Does your mom vacuu​m early​ in the morni​ng,​ when you'​re sleep​ing?​
Probably




What'​s the last thing​ you drank​?​
Water




Who is in your house​ right​ now?
Maux, Myself, Minow, Jo Jo, and October. Probably some bugs too.




Do you have a hard time admit​ting you'​re wrong​?​
For about .5 seconds




If you could​ move out right​ now, would​ you?
I just bought this piece! NO!


When you are home alone​ at night​ and hear stran​ge noise​s,​ are you afrai​d someo​ne is going​ to break​ in?
Seriously? Um, no... ? Yes? This is a "bad" neighborhood right??




Have you ever given​ someo​ne a fake tatto​o with a marke​r?​
Yes, and I like to tag faces just so you know.



Would​ you rathe​r have your nose or tongu​e pierc​ed?​
neither




Ever fall in mud?
A few hours ago infact




Does a certa​in smell​ remin​d you of anyon​e or anyth​ing?​
Oh god, yes. I do want to offend you by telling you more in detail about this, but alas. I'm not.
​




Are you a polit​e perso​n?​
I can be quite the lady.




Do you make your bed every​ morni​ng?​
Yes




If your boyfr​iend just died,​ what would​ you do?
Punch you in the face for asking that, then carry on with weaping in my hands I'm going to guess. And asking "why" to something that never answers me. Thanks a lot pepper plant!




Your paren​ts shipp​ed you off to Afric​a!​ Now what are you going​ to do?
Get AIDS???? Figure out how to hide from the rebels.




Is it easy for you to fall in love?​
Nope




Ever falle​n flat on your butt in publi​c?​
Dumb question. Yes.




Are you more serio​us when your argue​,​ or sarca​stic?​
I get rather inappropriately fictitious at times. Try not to argue at all ever.




Last song you liste​ned to was by who?
"China Girl" by David Bowie




Are there​ thing​s you would​ chang​e about​ your life right​ now?
More money, more fame. But I think everything is pretty rad as it is! :D



Excit​ed for schoo​l?​
Yeah, because school means employment ;)



Do you like skinn​y jeans​?​
You know it's true!




Do you comme​nt peopl​e's pictu​res back when you say PC for PC?
What the hell is happening to the English language?





Can you find a hairt​ie in the room your in?
Sure





Is it annoy​ing when you tell a boy nothi​ngs wrong​ and he belie​ves you?
What exactly are you asking?



Enter​ any conte​sts latel​y?​
Yeah! Atomic Cheesecake pin-up pageant! :D





Are you tired​?​
Yes



Anyth​ing you want to say to someo​ne?​
Lots of things to lots of someones.



Hate peopl​e who start​ drama​ const​antly​?​
I don't tend to have people circulating in my life who do anything constantly.




Do your paren​ts annoy​ you?
No, not really. They make me more tense and uneasy more than anything else.
​




When is it okay to cheat​?​
It's pretty dumb all the time, so.. never?




Where​ do you want to get marri​ed?​
If that ever happens, I think Vegas would be adorable.




What are you doing​ tonig​ht?​
Rob, and sleeping.



Is tomor​row going​ to be a good day?
I'm going to believe so




Would​ you ever get lip impla​nts?​
Why?




When you don'​t know what to say, what do you do?
I say "I'm not sure what to say".




Ever consi​der ownin​g a snake​?​
All the time. Afraid it would eat the kitties though.



Next car you'​ll be in?
My red kia.



Do peopl​e think​ you'​re older​ than you are?
I'm sure they do. I'm sure they don't.




Ever obbse​ssed over a celeb​rity?​
I'm pretty boy crazy for Stephen Colbert and Philip Seymour Hoffman.





How did you wake up this morni​ng?​
My alarm clock man.


Can you talk witho​ut movin​g your lips?​
I want to learn!!!!!!!!!!

Hello lovely people! I have a room for rent in my house that is on Shadyside Rd (right by Morgan State University) for $550 a month including all utilities (gas, electric, h20, wireless internet, cable, telephone) use of the washer/dryer and the entire house. I live here with two of my band mates (including my boyfriend) and we are looking for a mellow/drama-free house mate. We are artists and musicians and this place is great if you are into that jazz because we have a supreme jam spot in our basement :D

Cat and small pet friendly (we have 3 very friendly cats) and the room is available asap! You will also have your own bathroom!

Here are some pictures of the house I posted in my myspace blog
http://blog.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog&Mytoken=7AEB42FA-BCCF-4DBE-95B16E8DC756E0CA32498863

I have more upon request.

Please tell your friends!

Contact Lauren @ laurenheckman@gmail.com

Yep.

facebook page

I also recorded an EP yesterday. You can hear 2 tracks from it here.

Ooooooo!

I just put up a brand new song I recorded in the last 24 hours called "Rain Tarp" Also, a song from Ika and I's "Boy Girl EP" (coming very soon! ;) ) called "Every bus ride ends in fraud". You can listen to them here. Hope you enjoy, and I hope to be making a similar post by Friday-ish with even more brand new stuff to be recorded tomorrow. :D

Hi everybody. Just uploaded the newest batch of pictures from my Holga camera on my Flickr page and right ( here )

Well, I made an appearance again in the land of warren_ellis on his World Wide Week 2008, and also found a picture of myself from the Baltimore Erotic Arts festival. ( Silly )